
Today i got Motahare's Konkoor result: 11,600. not that disappointing, as it was expected by her capabilities. She herself did not also look down and miserable, unlike Malihe at her time, for her results and was not comparing herself with other counterfriends. One of the main reasons could be of her basic talent; But this is not the whole story, i suppose. Since she got to SAMPAD, she was not among the top, and maybe she lost her confidence. She was all top student, as far as i remember, up to grade 8 when she was somewhat pushed to get into SAMPAD by her brothers and sister. At the time, it was hard for us to accept her reasons why SAMPAD is not a good school: "They put too much pressure on students!" she would say. She must be wrongly terrified by other low-talented friends probably. that was in our perspectives. Although she got accepted, by the efforts Mehdi and I made to prepare her for the exam, and she has been since grateful to us in her sayings, she could never keep up the stand after she was left alone home with all of her brothers and sister studying in another city. Wait..I am not too sure. I dont know why i try to model her! in any case, she is smart, and she is living happily, pretty much independently and with less stress from others probably. That is too bad i am not in her mind, and thus I do not exactly know how she feels inside. My judgement is just based on what I see, and I believe I am not misled by her possible convincing pretence. I may have to conclude that, independence and working and deciding stand-alone is what the new generations need more, when Internet and ease of access to information can lessen significantly direct helps by others. There was also a point i realized some days ago: Our desire to give advices to our beloved is triggered from our own satisfaction; If i love my job and have a set goal and tasks which is undoubtedly directing me to an attainable bright future, i practically give less advices to my beloved (regardless of my emotional feeling such that I am theoretically more qualified to help others, and i should do it LATER!) , because the amount of satisfaction i would gain in taking the time on continuing my current job is more than that of giving advices to others. We of course live for own satisfaction.
I hate SAMPAD,...as you may know I attend there, but I never want my child to be back there, (of course I will not force her...).
ReplyDeleteAbout other points, I have lots of discussions, let's talk later...Only one more point.
I need help. Would you pls help me;):P