Rationality in Arguments vs Fights

Being honest to oneself is not that easy, the thing that I have tried to accomplish. The reason I am very receptive-and consequently very soft and not firm ,sort of groundless, in my mind, to any ideas receiving from my friends and any "human" is that I don’t want to foolishly stick to my initial opinion even if the other person looks totally irrational at the very first glance. I never liked, from my childhood, the stubborn guys who never really listened to the opposite views and just kept saying the same thing from the start till the end of argument, because they want to be the winner and they think from the beginning they are. This was not to me a rational argument, but more like a FIGHT! I was about 15 when i defined to myself an argument as follows:

"A valid argument is the one that I never participate unless I have first truly put myself in a neutral position and have considered probability, no matter how small, for the opponent to win."


I was very much interested in analyzing the roots of fights and arguments between adults when I was a very optimistic little boy. I believe not genetics, but my exposure to fights and arguments in the society and family and my very concentration on how people are thinking has made me be pretty much open to anything. I like all foods, all kind of weathers, all kind of people, all religions and anti-religions and atheist, all genders, all jobs, all personalities and all ice creams. I have no preference in what I want to do.
There is only one goal I want to reach. Learning and answering the questions which come up to my mind every day. I know I should take an action to personally do research and find at least an answer to one of the millions question marks in my mind. But there is sometime something really disappointing: what is the point if out of 1000 problems, my only contribution is insignificantly finding one answer of them and that is all! Then I think: well, all the others who have passed away have contributed to today’s modern life, though very little in their time, but very significant in the big picture.